The journey of me and Sophie

Sophie,

When i'm writing these lines, you are sleeping peacefully on the bed.

Daddy has returned to Singapore this morning, and i'm still sad about it.

Sophie, you are an amazing gift to me and daddy..

We have been through a tough journey that lasted more than 24 hours...

and both of us have to suffer a cesarean operation..

You have been so weak during the first 2 days of your life,

and i felt heart pain looking at you with the tube at your mouth.

But it's okie.. as right now you are a strong and lovely kid.

We have overcome all the hardest part already.

Sophie, i hope you would drink my milk better each day,

and grow up to be a very healthy kid.

i hope you will fall sick less than every other kid,

that you will recover quickly if you ever fall sick,

that you will be a well-behaved kid for us...

Sophie, our life together in the future might be tough..

maybe mom n daddy wont be able to give you all that you deserve..

but we will try out best to give you all the best we can..

and most of all, we give you our unconditioned love.

May God bless you.

Love.

Mom n daddy.

Sophie wants to get out!

Dearest,

Last nite I told your dad that I wanted to get you out since you made me feel too heavy already. I didn't know my wish'd become true later..

At midnight, while I tried to get some sleep, I had experienced some menstrual-like cramps, very mild.. And whenever I wanted to cross my leg over the long pillow, I had the feeling of full-bladder. I woke up n got to the toilet.. Then around 4.50am, I had a strong cramp. I didn't know what was that cos I was half-sleeping. Waking up to the toilet, I noticed some weird liquid but could not see exactly what it was.. At 5.50, the strong cramp came again n woke me up this time. I decided to run a contraction counting from Babybump. And it told me I have been in the first stage of labour. Freaked out 20%, slowly I went to the toilet, only to find out abt the "bloody show". I went downstairs slowly to tell your grandmother, she told me to get ready for hospital n call your dad. I called him and tell him to pack. Now he's on his 1pm flight and he will get here soon to be with us.

Sophie, at this stage, the cramps are bearable for me. I am worried that you are still a bit high than normal.. Then the cord around your neck... Pls pray that both of us will get through this safely with the best result.

I love you.
Mom.

Stretch Marks

Since mommy has many stretch marks in places that were meant to be for a pregnant lady, even way before mommy actually got pregnant.. So, mommy thought there will not be any more stretch marks... How naive!!! Now they are all around my belly button. Sophie, mommy is quite sad... not exactly sad, but just dont like it. Nah, it will not be able to affect my confidence. Its just bothersome. :)

Love you.

Mommy.

38 weeks

Sophie,

So you have gained 300 gr more in one week. Which is a really good result that made mommy, daddy, your grandparents, and my gynae very happy. Now we have less things to worry about. And i'm more anxious each day, wondering when will be your birthday..

Please keep on being healthy. Mommy will try my best to eat more healthy food, drink more milk so you could have all the best okie.. But you also need to try your best.

I went to watch Thor this morning with your uncle. We had a good time becos Thor is a nice movie without being overly comic-heroism. Some good jokes, simple but nice story, good acting from the cast, and Thor-character has a nice smile which reminds me much of your daddy. Its a kind of innocent child-like smile in a man's face, the type of man when he doesnt smile, he looks bloody fierce and angry.

Daddy will come over here soon.

You'll love it.

Sophie, take care ah.

May God bless us.

Love. Me.

37 weeks

Dearest Sophie,

Mom is very worried that you are only 2.3kg instead of the supposed 2.6-2.8kg. Mom has been eating well, so what prevented you from absorbing all the nutrition? We only have 3-4 more weeks to go. Please take all you can from me, and be a good healthy baby okie!

There was this lady telling your grandma that i'm going to give birth soon within 10 days. Rubbish i know. She's no fortune-teller. Your daddy laughed at it.I laughed too.

You moved less inside today.

Maybe you are restricted of the moving zone.

Oh yah, i'm talking abt it and you are moving wildly inside me.. hahhaa

Daddy has packed your stroller (passing down from Judith n Julia),

and some of mommy's clothes into his emergency luggage.

I now will pack my emergency bag for both of us.

Grandma told me today to call me immediately when i have any pain.

We have been preparing for you.

oH, how mom misses daddy so much.

It has been 1 month since mom last met daddy in person.

daddy misses mommy, too, you know.

and daddy misses you a lot more.

Sophie, we love you.

Be healthy okie.

35 weeks n 4 days

Sophie, dearest,

Now the journey is going to end soon, right?

You have been in my womb for 36 weeks now.

Only 3 more days and you could safely come out to life,

without being considered "born pre-matured".

Each day passed, I could feel you getting stronger.

even your bones feel harder each day with your movements.

It's so amazing when i realized you could listen to me n daddy's voice.

(mom n dad are chatting abt the beginning of our relationship right now)

Sophie, be healthy okie..

Pray that u will come to life when daddy is here for us.

I love you.

Mom.

Finally, daddy is home!

Last night he called at midnight and said he was on the way home.. I felt so good for the first time in many days..

Everyday I tell you to be ok, wondering if you could hear me. Pls stay healthy.

Love.Me

7 weeks

Mom was very sick yesterday..

n today when mom passed by the food court,

mom had a bad nausea. no good right?

so mom went to buy lots of healthy snack,

vegetable to steam..

n beef for iron...

Dad is digging tunnel despite the rain.

he sms-ed me that he would definitely be with me,

when i'm going back home for child birth.

its so good of him to do it right?

though i worry abt his job,

but i dont want to deny him his own pleasure of being with us..

you want him to be there as well, right?

Your grandma said "noi truoc buoc khong wa",

so that i stop expecting special things before this first trimester is over..

she just cares too much for me..

n she actually hopes much for you..

we all love you.

lets be healthy okie.

love.me.

Separated

Dear,

Today is our first anniversary but daddy has to go re-service. We spent the last two days with each other and i am extremely contented. I 've started to get more emotional than normal, which made daddy worried.. Btw us, he is definitely the one who will have a spell of behavior during this period, though he keeps on telling me not to over-react or over-do anything.

Pray that he will be fine.

Pls take care of him.

Love. Me.

First Ultrasound scan

We saw you...

And we are very, very happy...

Be safe, child.

Love.

From us.

yeah.. the big change!!!

Dear...

I felt you were inside me for a few days.

I thought i was being paranoid..

But last nite, it was a positive result.

Your dad and I are really happy about it.

Of course i was freaked-out a little bit,

thinking of all the negative ending to this..

like perhaps the body played tricks on me..

I saw the doctor just now.

She confirmed it and referred me to a professional..

I have called the clinic..

and tmr i will be there with your dad..

I'm really happy to see you coming..

I have told everyone I love abt you...

They are very happy and eager to see you too..

Soon darling, you would be real to me.

No more my imagination..

My love,

Take care of yourself, and of me okie.

Pray we will be fine in the next 9 months.

Pray that you will be super healthy...

We love you.

M&D

a new beginning will start from 20th may

finally...

i feel like i'm waiting for a big change.

with support from my husband and my family,

i can do it all..

love.me.

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